December 2010
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this year
has been one of the scariest years of my life. i have experienced some of the biggest highs and lows i’ve ever known. i also grew up in a lot of ways, and, funnily enough, got younger, too.
i got so depressed i didn’t know what to do. and i got offered help.
and i took it. that was probably the hardest thing i’ve ever done, admitting that i had lost control of my body and my...
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note to self:
percocet for long periods of time, being virtually unable to travel anywhere without the assistance of anyone else, and the inability to chew any food all make me a very unhappy camper.
day 4 of wisdom teeth recovery is making me feel Crazy with a capital C. but, i am trying to assure myself that the extended anxiety and cabin-fevery feelings are just a result of the drugs and the fact that i...
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ow.
today i got my wisdom teeth out. how enjoyable, right? but Liia sat and waited for me and then took me home, which was nice. and i’m sure quite funny.
so far all i’ve been able to successfully eat was two bites of mac and cheese, a milkshake, and a quarter of a cup of tomato soup.
and a lot of gatorade.
quite frankly, this blows. but i didn’t die while under anesthesia, as was...
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christmas and food and snow, oh my!
today i slowly rid myself of my christmas food baby. it will not be an easy job.
i do love new sweaters and boots though!
tomorrow i get my wisdom teeth out, snow permitting. ugh. ugh ugh ugh.
i shall now return to my coccoon of warmth. <3
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insomnia
is not good for my health or weight loss, but it is definitely good for wrapping christmas presents. so a little silver lining.
i am now going to try and sleep after a fairly lovely day with no workouts, woot (PSYCH*) but an okay feeling about it. tomorrow i think i shall go to my gym that i haven’t gone to in a while. hopefully i do not see people from high school, which would be awkward....
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as devilish as the dining hall is,
many things about college and eating at college taught me important life (and especially dieting, for me) lessons.
i guess this is because i was living with a bunch of girls who a) didn’t really know me well enough to respond how i needed and b) wouldn’t necessarily love me no matter what if i was an irrationally crazy ball of stress and tears and anger. so i developed coping skills....
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it's a blargh kind of day.
tired. ate too much. didn’t run. have to get up at 7 tomorrow.
SOLUTION:
http://www.puppystalker.com/live.html
probably the creepiest thing i’ve done all day, but, hey.
babysitting
is the diet devil.
i ate way too much today, am 328 calories over my goal, and am exhausted.
ugh.
i also have to run (er…probably walk mostly) 2 miles but i really don’t want to.
great.
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there is nothing better
than doing the pilates videos i started doing almost a year ago and realizing that what used to literally bring tears to my eyes is now still challenging but doable.
AWESOME. sometimes i forget how much stronger my body has become, even when i’m having an off week (er…month.). i love feeling stronger. what a fabulous reminder on why i exercise. this feeling, right now.
i am slowly...
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i'm SO back.
i am on the ball. i’m home. i am teaming up with the dieting team (i.e. myself, Liia, Liia’s mommy, and my sister, who is lame and doesn’t have a fitblr account. but she’s still a part of the awesome team).
this morning i’ve had some golean (which is what REALLY started kicking my ass into the weightloss game—it’s so filling and awesome), a clementine (I...
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i think i would be a lot less scared
of my geological oceanography final that’s happening in an hour and a half if i didn’t have a giant crush on one of the people in my class.
but, you know, i like to make my life hard. it’s more fun that way.
BLARGH. one final and one paper and then home.
and back to dieting.
and working out.
and being a normal human being.
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Finals are your bitch.
dailypeptalk:
Pep talk: Your brain is so full of information that there is not a thing on this test that you haven’t at least skimmed. You’re going to march in there with your #2 pencil (or whatever) and you’re going to mark a whole shitload of right answers. And then, you know what? You’re going to go on break.
Today remind yourself: Finals are my bitch.
this is the best thing i’ve...
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linguistic anthropology
is taking over my life. that’s cool, i guess.
i’ve been eating super sporadically and weirdly. like today, i had an omelette. and then like 1.5 chocolate chip pancakes and some hashbrowns and some more eggs. and then a little bit of mac and cheese and vegetables at dinner.
it’s been weird. i blame the studying. throwing me off my game.
anyway, now i’m hungry, which is...
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damn, finals are bad for exercising.
(reblogged from constantbattle)
truer words never spoken.
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"we have gotten weird since we started dieting."
me and Liia, you know, just avoiding work, skyping, the usual.
so true. naps and sprinkle treats and watching friends. that is what we did.
now we do workout videos.
carogetsfit asked: hey lady! i just saw your post from a little bit ago about not feeling so great and i just wanted to say keep your head up :) some weeks are worse than others but it seems like you're getting right back on track, which is always the hardest part.
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what is this place?
there’s all sorts of black and silver whirring machines and people with this weird moisture on them and lots of heavy things and tvs.
OH RIGHT, THAT’S THE GYM.
AND I WENT TODAY. FIN.A.LLY.
i made it! and i’m finishing my day around my goal of calories!!!!!!!!!!
this is exciting. i’m beginning the rest of Skinny Mini December. and i shall definitely be posting more and...
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crap.
fabulous fitblrs, i get so hesitant to tell you all the truth when i’m doing really poorly. you are all so wonderful and there are so many of you that have terrible days and stressful weeks and keep striving to eat well and work out every day and i am TOTALLY in awe. i am just not that strong most of the time! for the last three days (ish) i’ve been completely freaking out about my...
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this paper
is turning me into a grumplestiltskin.
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i am feeling
very down lately. i’m trying to power through, but i guess it’s just an off week.
i weighed in at 166.6 this morning. not surprising given the past week.
so far today i’ve had coffee, lucky charms with 2% milk, a little slice of pepperoni pizza, salad with low-fat italian dressing, and a rice krispie treat. not bad. i need to work out today like whoa. and do homework like...
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blurgh.
bad. bad eating, bad sleeping, bad homework, bad working out. bad bad bad.
i am going to do three yoga breaths.
and now i’m going to let it go, accept it, and just finish out the week strong, working my butt off. just about two more weeks and then i’ll have a long break at home.
i will be back on track tomorrow, starting with my coffee and cereal tomorrow morning.
done.